Monday, January 26, 2009

It's going to be a good year...

I am loving all of my classes so far and can't wait to learn more.

I am so excited to move to New York and live with my boyfriend.

I am starting to take bass lessons with my good friend Andy and hopefully I'll be rockin' soon. Speaking of which, I have been hanging out with Andy a lot. I like that kid. Haha, last night he made a good point, "I have no life and my girlfriend lives two hours away... so I'm always down to hang out." To which I responded, "Ha, hey me too." Nice guy. He gets my weird sense of humor just as he has a weird one too. Plus he suggested getting wings at like 11 last night and that alone... rules. I keep laughing at myself for saying, "You know I hate it when people talk in internetz lingo and shit... like when people put "u" instead of "you" and "4" instead of "for"... ya know man, shit like that..." I am a goober.

Can't wait to see what the year has ahead. BEE-YA.

Friday, January 02, 2009

I suck:

Seriously though... I am a mess. I am in New York right now just thinking of all the ways I suck. I got 3 D's... THREE D's... last semester. And a B... not even an A to barely weigh in with the demonic D's. I need to make a huge comeback this coming semester... if I get my loans, that is. The worst part... I have yet to tell my parents and I am just dreading that terrible conversation/argument.

Also, I was starting to have something going great in my life... and then I had to get too drunk, black out, kiss some other dude, and not even remember it. What is wrong with me? I feel like the future of 2009 is completely uncertain right now. It's tearing me up. I want to make things right. I want to drink less. I want to let my best friend know how much I love him and want to be with him.. I want to let him know how happy he makes me. I don't even know if he'll care anymore. This is the worst feeling. Here is to hoping I can get my shit together in '09.