Friday, January 02, 2009

I suck:

Seriously though... I am a mess. I am in New York right now just thinking of all the ways I suck. I got 3 D's... THREE D's... last semester. And a B... not even an A to barely weigh in with the demonic D's. I need to make a huge comeback this coming semester... if I get my loans, that is. The worst part... I have yet to tell my parents and I am just dreading that terrible conversation/argument.

Also, I was starting to have something going great in my life... and then I had to get too drunk, black out, kiss some other dude, and not even remember it. What is wrong with me? I feel like the future of 2009 is completely uncertain right now. It's tearing me up. I want to make things right. I want to drink less. I want to let my best friend know how much I love him and want to be with him.. I want to let him know how happy he makes me. I don't even know if he'll care anymore. This is the worst feeling. Here is to hoping I can get my shit together in '09.

1 comment:

Emily said...

<3 you were forgiven and you are on the mend. 2009 can and will be better. i love ya.