Monday, November 24, 2008

Goin' to Acapulco...

This is a brand new entry... my first in 2008.
The year is coming to an end and while some are reflecting of the year, I am just ready to move on and move out. It's hard to remember a lot of the year... a part of me has been feeling like maybe I need to sober up. I am trying to change my life up a little right now and it feels refreshing. For nearly seven months of my life, I was in a bad relationship. Well, when it was good, it was great... and when it was bad, it was terrible. He was a terrible influence on me and I am trying to turn things around. I am moving to New York City next May to hang out with one of my best friends indefinitely. That sounds like a ridiculous plan. The economy is going to shit. I haven't finished school. I don't have too much money yet. All odds are against me, yet there is something driving me more than I thought possible to do this. My connection and ties to Oklahoma is dwindling. While it will always be my home, I don't feel like this place has much else to offer me. It is terrifying to just flee out of the security I have here, but I am excited for it... but nervous nonetheless. I feel like all of my friends are just moving in their separate directions, starting their own lives. Riley is off to Portland. Julie is planning on doing who knows what. Ryan is married for crying out loud. New York is my plan and my future. Adventures await me and not complacency. That's all that I need to know.

1 comment:

Emily said...

and not complacency. was the most important part. the worst thing you'll get out of going somewhere indefinitely *like i did to tennessee* is a life experience, and thats awesome. we're young. now is our time. love, em.